Pain is in the Air

"I'm OOHYO.
Youth turns out to be far less exciting and far more unstable than we expect. When we realize the weight of our lives, the weakness within ourselves, we feel small and suffer. There is something important about these difficulties and that is for whom we overcome them. Recently I began to strive for youth with an open mind, not getting trapped inside my own self, rather than youth dedicated to worrying about what's to come and planning only for my future. I hope the young people, including myself, get to make the time on our hands most interesting and meaningful, and stop obsessing over how hurt we have been in the past, how different we are from others at the moment, and how successful we push ourselves to become in the future."

Like a plank of wood, floating in the big vast ocean. 
Pain is in the air. 

I Started the Joke

Is life getting harder for me to deal with or I'm getting harder to deal with?

My patience is as thin as my zen.

No Surprises

Is mastering the art of having no expectations the answer to the way of life? Smlj is manage your expectations? 

"We deserve the love we accept." — oh shut the fuck up. 

Well, people don't treat you like shit, they just don't give you their best. 

How now? 

Million Miles Away

So tired of the notion of pursuit...
Excited to turn over to the next page and watch how life will unfold, but also curious about  how it feels like to have the page torn off and know what's beyond.

Currently the currents of current times

And if you don't think it's a crime you can come along, with me
Life is moving, can't you see
There's no future left for you and me
I was holding and I was searching endlessly
But baby, now there's nothing left that I can do so
So don't be blue
There is another future waiting there for you

Turn On, Tune In, Drop Out

You already know that we're just two lost souls swimming in the fish bowl year after year. Yes I'm changing, and I'm gone. Yes I'm older, and yes I'm moving on. But if you don't think it's a crime you can come along, with me. I know there's a world out there and it's calling my name...& calling yours too. So honey, come as you are & die as you will.

Ride high & live forever, baby. Don't stop imagining. Because the day that you do is the day that you die.

Let's make our way across the universe. Turn off your mind, relax... & float downstream. It's only times like these where we're swallowed up to a place in space where the end is the beginning is the end, where there will only be you & I – Caught in the cosmic landslide, swimming in the sea of unknown pleasures.

Shades Of Cool

Current Mood: Void of love.

Hello there my dusty little internet space, it's been a while.
Writing here again because I don't need answers or truths.

3 years (of youth). It has really been a while.

So... I've been away, climbing stairs; sort of. Progress with uncountable amount of regressing.

Cried (alot). Got hurt. Lost my mind. Fucked it through countless nights. Stood up for myself. And made myself believe that I was reborn in a different light.

And now... carrying a different kind of weight.

Tonight is just one of those many nights that has shackled me back to square one. I refuse to say that I can't handle. But I'm cradling my sighs of contradictions like a weepy child.

Breathe in...and out...and in again...and out...breathing hard...go easy...pacing...still breathing.
Do I keep up? If yes, how?

Who can forgive me for being another sorry soul with fucking first world existential issues?

 Did I grow? Perhaps. 

Are all these destined? Possibly. 

Am I too trying? Definitely.


What's on the other side of the grass. I wanna go there...