Figs & Foes, For the Lovers

I'll never be in your plans, and I think it's time for some sense of realization for me.
It's okay, cos I think we should call this 'friend' status thingy off anyway.

I don't need to see you.
I don't need to talk to you.
I don't need your friendly hugs.
I don't need your obligations.
I don't need your sincerity.
I don't need you to make up for me in any possible way.
I need to not need you, as much as I want to.

You lead your life, I lead my life.
I know I may just end up regretting all these things that I've said right now, and then hope that I could take back everything later. I definitely will. But maybe this would be better than crying over someone who would never be the same or at least be there for me. I'm at my wits end, cos I don't know how else I can get over you already. Perhaps this is the only way you can have the privacy in your life from me, away from me. So I hope this is the last time I will cry for you, now that I'm writing this. I know calling off this relationship and friendship wouldn't bother or sting you even, but will be the best gift I can ever give to you this New Year.
I thank you for these 3 years, cos life wasn't the same without you. I thank you for trying. I thank you very much.

It'll be hard living without you, but I will try.
Cheers to you, cheers to 2009.
I love you always, Alexander.

Now will someone just call or sms me up to comfort me? :(