Wildfire

Right now I am currently waiting for my turn to present for crit for advertising campaign class.
My mind went extremely warped and I feel unstable so just want to write it all out hopefully calm my nerves. The insides of me can't stop quivering, just feels like I'm placed in a full force blizzard. You know, like someone disconnected the right wires in my brain and plug them back to the wrong sockets. The blood doesn't flow, throat is coming up and my stomach is running some kind of butterfly farm on its own. It's fucking insane. The anxiety is spreading like wildfire.

It all started at Eric's place. I slept a little while just now before we came school from his place cuz we were rushing for Ad Cam the entire night & I was so tired. I dreamt that I died 2 times, 3 times. I literally lost my heart, it kinda dropped out from my chest and I felt like I was dead inside. In between those frenzy moments when I was trying to find my heart , I saw/met all the people I've been thinking about lately. Conversations after conversations, faces after faces - some offered helping hands, some gave me hugs/kisses while others were simply passing people. And I clearly remember that there was someone that actually gave/donated his heart to me, but I dropped it along the way again cuz I didn't cherish it and continue to find something I already had.

Then I woke up at the peak of my fear immediately, grabbed my chest and let out a weighty breath. Not exactly relieved cuz I thought I was seriously dead & couldn't even figure out where I was for quite a while when I am clearly sitting up on the bed.

I can't think straight now and my head is spinning. Could someone please tell me what I should feel?